April 27, 2008

• Perhaps it’s a good thing that I can take an insane night and come out with some pretty sane thoughts. Right?
  1 > I can admit that I am petty & shallow & imperfect, yet still think I am a worthwhile person for most people to meet. So, I suppose I have an ego too. This doesn’t mean I thought anyone didn’t want to meet me last night, it’s just one of those random thoughts I had on the bus.
  2 > I don’t like when 90% of people touch my hair. I can’t figure out why this is… and when it looks its best, people want to touch it which causes it to not look its best. And it makes me feel like a pet.
  3 > I also don’t like when people ask me if I am having a good time. I must look like I am having a crappy time often, somehow, without me really trying. I thoroughly enjoy myself most of the time whether I look it or not. I wonder if people who, from the outside, look like they are “having fun” really are?
  4 > Running into students/colleagues (former and current) outside of the classroom… I’m still unsure of how to react to it. I want to just be myself and do what I would do whether they were there or not, but there can be consequences to that which I have rebelled against in the past.
  5 > A friend my sisters and I used to know once said that she had enough friends, that she didn’t need more which was her reasoning for distancing herself at social gatherings. I thought last night about how I like who I like and I dislike who I dislike, and those categories will probably rarely change. However, I do like to meet new people. And that’s a big positive addition to the theory of our previous friend.

  And it’s all melting today. I think after a nap, I’ll try to run a
  wet 3.0 miles in order to catch up after two days of crazy weather.

  • 3:50 pm
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