July 15, 2008
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This little “food problem” has caused me to step off the somewhat-BFL-based-plan I was on allowing me to evaluate “it all.” I went on the BFL discussion boards Sunday or yesterday, posting what had happened (hoping for support/sympathy and getting it, of course); I’m appreciative of these strangers’ posts of encouragement and stories, yet some of the posts and messages were that of the “cult” attitude C had mentioned to me earlier. One fellow hardcore BFLer (who I think is pretty cool; he’s given me some recipes) placed a bet that I’d lose $5 from getting food poisoning (not something I care too much about right now, really) but that I shouldn’t let my body get down to “starvation mode” thus causing me to lose muscle, one warned me about losing weight then gaining it back when I returned to normal habits, and while there were more posts that just read, “That sucks! Wishing you a speedy recovery!” I’m focused in on the doom & gloom ones. And having taken this step back too, I see that it can be somewhat cult-like. For instance, I’m still writing down what I’m eating everyday like I’ll flunk a test if I don’t; I’m anxious about getting back in the gym. I even felt a little bad driving the car to campus yesterday even though I had no energy to bike. It occurred to me yesterday that I know what it takes to get my body into shape. I know now that I have the tools to make that happen, so why am I harder on myself now (after putting myself into a more rigid program) than when I was just eating well and biking/walking/running? And there are people on this BFL program, too, who boast that they haven’t had a “Free Day” (of eating) for X amount of weeks. I thought to my-lightheaded-self this morning, “I don’t want to think that much about eating for the rest of my life.” I just don’t.
I’m not going to feel bad that I ate some fries yesterday (they were the first ones in over a month!). I’m not going to feel bad if I miss a mini-meal or if my last meal of the day doesn’t have a certain type of protein in it. I’m not going to feel bad that I detest the taste & texture of cottage cheese. I’m not going to feel bad if I skip weights and do cardio everyday instead.
I over-analyze A LOT OF THINGS IN MY LIFE. Shouldn’t I be trying to take items off that list, not adding to it?
[I think I'm getting back to normal, mentally... I'm feeling a bit sassy today.]
Comments (3)
Amen sister! You have a healthy view of the BFL cult. Just watch me if I ever get into it again, I obsess, because of my all-or-nothing flaw. I think you are wise to take care of yourself and recognise when you can’t push your body.
Those that brag about skipping their free days usually fall hard. The whole point of the free day is to take off the pressure. Finding a balance between the diet recommendations and a controlled amount of freedom is the key. (I haven’t found it! hee hee hee)
@ChubEchpmnk -
And I think the “Free Day” is there also to ease one into realizing that you can have “bad” foods once in awhile. I see WHY the program using the “Free Day”… it’s a good idea for those who eat out a lot; I just don’t. So, to have a “Free Day” of crap would be me eating at home attempting to cook fatty things?… I’d rather sprinkle that freedom throughout the week. Plus, I think because I’ve sorta been a calorie-counter in the past, I know how much I can take in if I do eat out (or eat at all). I’ve started listening to my stomach better… food poisoning has helped that; and I eat slower too which is a good thing.
I put new songs on my iPod Shuffle today… in hopes of using it again soon (bought it so I could use it working out – my big iPod, first generation, is too large). I know I’ll get back to how I was feeling, but I just gotta focus on the present. I may try shopping first (the basic cardio of all – walking a lot) tomorrow in Fargo. I’m unsure of my plan, but maybe we could meet up for lunch (one of these three days)?
To my mentality everything you utter looks like correct
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