October 12, 2008

• Lately, I’ve realized how easily it is to really, REALLY overthink EVERYTHING in the world. Take it all in and drown in the mess of life. I completely understand how people get to the point of no return, how people get to that “I’m OUTTA HERE” point. Perhaps because I’ve “been there and thought all that,” I’m a better listener to those who are knee-deep in it all. Yet, oddly, it’s also the reason, the backbone, to my “eternal optimism.” It’s selfish to a point; I am an optimist so that my life is fun for me. Sure, my outlook and attitudes waver from time to time, and I’ve had a mini-emotional break-down here and there (though, they are few and far between). And, yes, when I’m angry it comes out (better than allowing it to fester), but overall, I’m optimistic. It’s a curse sometimes, I guess. But to me, it’s just how I have to function.

  During opening week, we had a presenter talk about surrounding one’s self with “healthy” individuals. I’m in the process of figuring out who truly is “healthy,” but I think one component is definitely having a bit of optimism in one’s outlook.

  With that written, I also know that I need to work on finding the positive in everything. Take for instance my recent presentation at the Summit. It wasn’t attended by a ton of people (the previous presentation at 1pm contained fifty people ready to hear all about a former Bismarckian and her experiences in NYC) – 1/5 actually. The positives were that we were able to have more of a discussion, instead of a blogging lecture. I also received feedback and questions from students who seemed interested in my research (almost too much – at points, I wondered if they were asking questions to shut me up or because they were genuinely intrigued); at the end, a woman even personally told me she’d learned so much from my presentation. These are the things I need to focus on; THIS IS WHY I BLOG ABOUT IT ALL.

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